Well, it is that time of year again when we feel the need to reflect on the past year and look forward to the new one. I've been thinking a lot lately about this past year and the problems and issues. It hasn't been the greatest year, it probably is one of the worst as far as life and my attitude towards life goes. I've decided that I will change this year. I will lose weight. I will run regularly. I will have better relationships with my friends and family. I will be a better wife, mom, daughter, niece, granddaughter friend and teacher. I will finally get this house how it needs to be. I will have a better relationship with God.

Everything hinges on the last two things that I mentioned. This house is my achilles heel. This house feels like the world and I am Atlas trying to carry it on my shoulders. All of the junk, the clothes, the toys, the books. The clutter, the nastiness, the disorganization, the WASTE!!!!

I feel like my life is being wasted because of this house. It is preventing me from doing the rest. I have to get this done!!!! I must get this done. I must change!!!!

I took a bunch of pictures of the house. I also found pictures of me and my family (both good pictures and bad pictures). I created a motivation folder on my computer and every time I feel unmotivated, every time I say I can't do it, I will look at these pics and say to myself - are you satisfied with this or do you want something better? I want something better and I will do whatever I can to get it done.